WHAT WILL HAPPEN IN 2014??

okey...so it's like another 2 hours till 2014. so i thought i write this as the last post to wrap up 2013....

as we all know this year is a crucial year for the '97...
it's ESPIYEM...

truthfully i'm a little scared. what makes me even scared is when my mum say to me "be prepared. kakak."

seroiusly, she has to remind me back. Why u ask???

you see it's like every year that i'm gonna face the exams of our life, there will be obstacles.

UPSR on 2009, i still remembered on the very last day of the exam, i went back to my hometown in my school uniform bcuz my great-grandmother for i do not know where does it come from, i called her 'nenek' instead of 'moyang', left the world, she has passed away. since, i was only 12 back then, i was like "owh...so that's why my dad left the house around 4 in the morning.."

PMR on 2013, my mum has been diagnose with one of the many type of cancer in the world.. i don't remember what's the name... it is really tough. i still remember the few days b4 trial starts, my mum was hospitalized then one day at skool, the office called me n my sis. then my father showed up. i dunno vas happenin', but one thing for sure, the kerani said to me to stay strong.
then the saddest part happen when i saw all my relatives is there n my atuk. me ny my siblings cried the moment we were called by the nurse saying "ibu awak nak jumpe".
then u don't want to know wat happen. it involved a lot of crying, wheelchair, praying, reminiscing back the past..

SPM on 2014 - never know wat will happen that's why i have to prepare...

p/s: my mum said that student who says sorry and ask for the parents blessing every day b4 entering the exams hall, will always succeed. i can do that but i don't want to enter the hall with tears... cuz i can't see their face, i can just hear their voice thru the phone.....